How My Life Works

“After you ask for what you want, if you think that You have to make it happen, you will experience feelings of doubt. Those feelings of doubt are telling you the ‘how’ is not your job. Your job is to feel your dream inside. Then the Universe will move people, circumstances, and events to bring about your dream. You have the intelligence of the Universe permeated in every cell of your body. The activation of this almighty power of all good comes through your awareness of it. The moment you are aware that it is within you, you have consciously activated the greatest power in the Universe to work through you.”

-- The Secret Daily Teachings

I used to believe that one can create the life they want the way they like, and I still do as a matter of fact. However, one thing I still didn’t master is to let go of the ‘how’. I used to worry a bit about how I can make something manifest in my life. But you know what? Every time something manifested in my life, it was totally unlike the way I endeavoured to make it happen. Two prominent examples are my wife-to-be and, very recently, laptop.

Very early in my life, I wanted to marry someone I really love. And I wanted that person to love me back. Indeed love just happens and one can’t do much to make it happen, but at least I had that certain idea in my head. I was progressing in age and no one showed up. I came to a point at which I decided that I should marry someone, anyone, and then love can happen later. We have to admit that this is the case with many people: first they marry then they love each other. Many successful marriages started like that, we can argue. So, I found someone and took a step. It didn’t work. I tried again, but still didn’t succeed. Then I decided to quit and concentrate on something that I can grow and develop: my career. And I did. But that idea of getting married to a girl I love and be loved back by her didn’t fade.

I had just made that decision when I met her. At first, I resisted hard. I used to tell myself that I wasn’t ready for another trial and that I couldn’t fall in love that quickly and that soon. But it happened and was growing day after day. I didn’t plan it. I didn’t do anything to help it grow, but it did. ‘It must be the one,’ I told myself. Yes she was. In a relatively short time, we were planning our engagement.

The other example that proves the ‘Secret Teaching’ I started with is a laptop I recently had.

For quite a while, I have been trying to buy a laptop. I didn’t need one before, but over time it became increasingly necessary. I started thinking how I can get one. Am I going to buy it on HP? What brand should I buy? Every time I made a plan, something happened and forced me to change my plan. One day my cousin told me they have laptops on HP at work. She asked me if she should get one for me. I said no because it wasn’t my plan to get a laptop that way. And I forgot about that story. But I still wanted a laptop. Two or three weeks later she called me and told me about two brands and which one I recommend. I thought she wanted one for herself, so I gave her my recommendation. A week later she called to tell me she bought me a laptop. When I saw it, I liked it very much. And what’s more, it was totally convenient how I pay for it.

Now I want a life in which my wife-to-be and I share happiness together. I want a life of success and fulfilment. I don’t know how and I don’t want to. But I’m sure I’ll have it. It happened before and it will continue to happen so long as I keep the idea and feel it inside.

That’s how my life works.